some introspection

Well, a goodly percentage of the posts of this journal in the first few years concerned the fight to keep parishes open. I had a part, not an important part, but i did chronicle it. I have no regret in what i did within the movement. The actions were right, but if i had a choice now to go back in time, i would not have involved myself. I gave up time and opportunities, overall i was hurt by my involvement. A few people i journeyed with are now dead, it has not been a long time. Now after the parishes were re-established, like in other battles, some of those now there had no part in the fight. What sickens me is the large amount of people, who are in the churches now (including some of those i journeyed with) have abhorrent views, and are fundamentally, ethically, extremely compromised—no one can be a Christian, and believe as a trumpster does.

I am glad, i went to see stuff that are/were yearly events. They are both internally repetitive, and serial. Opportunity allows time to experience both initially and again, while the missing of any particular occurrence is not unknowing of the experience. Over time the event may lessen or disappear, so having seen it before is better than this or the next time. 

I took fotos of buildings, that since have been demolished and levelled over. From ancient civilisations we have extant buildings. They built for permanence. America builds for the moment, and that moment is for cash now. The United States has become the most disposable culture. Here locally, school district after school district wants to raze down buildings, and raise up other ones. They and others, including tenants of stadiums, whine about the useful life of the structures has passed. They want new monuments for themselves, paid by others. So get out your cameras early for about everything, because it could be gone soon. That is also true of public art. Weather erodes art, especially when cheap materials are used. Then there is the fickleness of ownership. "Well, that did not last long", can often be said.

About the choice of focus on this journal: i have gone down several avenues. I thought, and still do, that i have a voice worth hearing. Largely, i have not been successful. America seems to prefer particularists, rather than generalists. If i chose one field, such as hockey, and wrote well on it, i might have had a greater audience. Many people are narrowly focused, and unforgiving of remarks they disapprove of, and do not want other topics discussed.